Melissa Marie Chamberlain

I am sorry I haven't written in a while. Once again there is so much to tell you. First off I just want to say it is just not the same without your phine calls. It is true when they say that you don't miss something until you don't have it anymore. SO where do I start--it is Thanksgiving morning I am cooking like always. Lisa is cooking too. Mommy is staying home because she doesn't feel well. I am making all the usual stuff. I can't wait to eat. our new nephew is so adorable. He is 2 months old now. And he has redish hair!!!! Nicky just turned 5 can you beleive it! Ryan had surgery on Monday. thanks for watching over him and making sure everything went good. He is sore but he is doing ok. He won't be going back to school until the end of next week though. The kids are doing good in school. Business is not good but hopefully the internet business will take off. It is just going to be awhile before he makes any money with it.We still haven't gone through your stuff. Lisa is still having a hard time dealing with you being gone. I think keeping your stuff around is her way of keeoing you around. Well I have a lot to do so I have to go for now. I just wanted to say hi and let you know that even though I don't get on this site everyday like I used to I am still thinking about you all the time. Miss you. Happy Thanksgiving! 

Love,

Toni

missy, you are still my best friend,and always will be.I know you must see everything thats going on in my life, not too good,i dont believe my marriage is going to last much longer, frank has turned into a very angrey man and takes it all out on me, i dont know if it is the economy, but he is very frustrated and mean one day, and the next he says he loves me so much,i can't handle the head games. i have been out of work for almost a year, becauce of my injury, wich was not my fault, when he had his accident i was there for him 24/7, when i had my accident at the hands of another person he abandoned me, my heart was broken, i was alone all the time , there has been so much loss in my life this year, you,amanda moved out,my husband would rather be with his friends,so i sit here alone and cry,1 is truley the loneliest number.so i am slowley making plans to move on and finally take care of myself, i have dedicated over 20 yrs to my family, always putting myself last, its my time now,i think god has given me another chance to find happiness.i raised 2 of the most awesome kids, i will leave after anthony is set up for college.Amanda hired a private fitnees trainer, she did her 1rst competion this week,came in 1rst place,she was stunningly beutiful, i am so proud of both my kids,they have good heads on there shoulders,go figure, who would have ever thought  i would do so good in raising children.your mom called me the other day i told her what was going on with frank and i,i wish i could get up there to see her,but the economy is really bad, hope our new president can start to fix things.I love you sweetie, i will write soon, love always Sue.

DEAR VINCENT,ITS BEEN ALMOST 3 WEEKS SINCE YOU WERE BORN. AUNT MIMI WAS LOOKING FORWARD FOR THAT DAY. YOU KNOW SHE WOULD HAVE BEEN HERE THE MINUTE SHE HAD HEARD YOUR MOM WAS IN LABOR. YOU KNOW  I KNOW THAT SHE WAS WATCHING OVER YOU WITH THE GOOD LORD WHEN YOU WERE BORN. WHEN YOU GET OLDER YOULL BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS ALL ABOUT. SHE LOVED CHILDREN EVER SO MUCH. I HOPE MOMMY & DADDY WILL TELL YOU & YOUR BROTHERS ABOUT HER AND SHOW YOU PICTURES. SHE IS OUR ANGEL NOW AND I KNOW SHE WATCHES OVER US. REMEMBER HER AND YOU AND YOURE BROTHERS KEEP HER IN YOURE PRAYERS GRANDMA  LOVES ALL YOU CHLIDREN SO SO MUCH  I MEAN ALL YOU CHILDREN FROM MINE DOWN TO ALL TO THE YOUNGEST.REMEMBER WHEN YOU GET OLDER TRUST IN THE LORD AND TAKE JESUS INTO YOUR HEART.

           LOVE IN JESUS NAME

               GRANDMA

hey girl, missing you so much! i had my surgery finally aug 6, the pain was so umbearable, but it was succsesful. i'm naw in therapy and it is the most painful thing i've ever been through, but it it working. got alot of my range of motion back, hopefullyin a month or 2 i can go back to work,have been very deppressed,i sleep alot,watch tv, or cry.not such a great life at this time! the lack of me bringing in an income has put alot of financial stress on frank, wich he verbly takes out on me, this accident was not my fault,but i'm suffering in so many waYS BECAUCE OF SOMEONE ELses neglegents,not fair!after 22 yrs together i dont know if our marriage is going to makeit, i pray everynight for thigs to get better between us, one day he loves me, the next he acts like he hates me, i dont know what to do.anyway the kid are doing great in everyway,amanda is in collage with a 4.0 gpa so proud of her,anthony is in 11 grade w/3.85gpa were did these kids come from lol. they both have jobs, are kind, respectful,smart&beutiful, i lucked out. would never have been able to raise kids like my mom didgod bless her ill talk to you soon love always,sue

hey mimi, well thats see i havent wrote in awhile so i figured i come by and we can catch up on everything.  dont take this the wrong way but i really dont want to be like grandma and write every single day only because it would be harder.  not saying that i dont think about you, i do everyday and its good things remembering all the fun we use to have.  coming back here though i love it, makes me sad.  so first i want to talk about mommy, bob and aunt tonis trip to the house to get your stuff.  something strange happened there and i dont know what it is because they will not tell me.  they think im stupid, i could sense it.  they left at 6:30 it takes three hours to get there so they got there around 9:30 and i get a call from aunt toni around 10:30 saying that they are on their way home but are stopping to get something to eat.  i asked why they didnt stay and hang out for awhile.  they said they couldnt do it and wanted to leave.  i dont know.  anyway so when they got back i was in the kitchen and mommy gave me a envelope with a card in it she told me it was already opened - which was whatever, i opened it and it was from you.  she told me that apparently you wrote one to everyone, but mine was the only one found.  do you know how much it killed me reading those first lines.....i just broke down.  i couldnt believe that i was reading a letter from you that you wrote to me knowing that someday we werent going to be here.  i looked at the day of that letter and it was feb 06.  that was around the time don and i came up to visit for the weekend, do you remember that.  i believe it was left the fact of us being there.  i still have it and will never throw it away.  mommy said that she wasnt going to give it to me at first because she knew how i would react.  i would have been pissed if she didnt and i found out about it.  but thank you mimi for being you and for loving me and all of us the way you did and still do. 

ok so enough about that - so the wedding i know aunt toni pretty much told you everything about it.  there is much for me to talk about but there is some.  the day was beautiful and everything was perfect, though there were some bumps i didnt care because they were not important to me.  the minute i woke up that day i thought about you and how much i wish you were there in person.  i know you were there in spirit but its not the same.  did you see how hot don and me looked haha!!  oh my god i was beautiful and don was sexy as hell....LOL!!!  we took our family pics i wish you were in them i really do.  gram and aunt toni and even mommy wanted to have a pic of you to hold to be in the family pic.  i didnt like that idea, im sorry!  so yeah we played a song for you that was awesome im hoping that the video guy go it on camera if not im going to be pissed.  we had such a great time aunt mimi i miss you so much you were so excited about this whole thing and you missed it couldnt you have just held on for alittle longer.......why did you have to go.  you know i got a tattoo for you, you would love it.  its a girlie frog dressed in a leather jacket and a leather skirt with the harley shield in the background (thats not finished yet, it hurt too much i have to go back in another week) and then at the bottom it says MIMI and under that 04/18/08.  its so nice i love it.......but im going to go for now ill write more later when i get home because right now im at work....love you

Hey girl, sorry i haven,t written in awhile, i,ve been in the middle of a battle between lawers and ins co.But i won! I get my surgery aug 6th, i am nervous, i will have to be in a sling for about 3 mnths, thats going to drive me nuts!Now all i have to do is agree on a settlement, these people have screwed up the last 7 mnths of my life, its taken a real toll on me physically and emotionally. Well its 2:30 am, the onlt time i can really relax, w/out someone needing me. Tomorrow i am going to the driftwood by myself, thank god! I will be staying in the room you and greg stayed in.Wish you could come with me, just you and me, could you imagine the fun we would have! I mss you girl, you know we meet so many people during our lifetimes, they come and go,but you always have that 1 or 2 people that you stay friends with forever,for me that was you! A good friend is someone who knows everything about you, but still loves you.i admit i have been a very bad girl over the years, and you kwow all my secrects, my husband of 22yrs does'nt know half as much as you.lol!I heard about Shannons wedding, congrats, she was always such a sweet girl,yore mom calls me alot, she misses you so much it breaks my heart, i just want to hold her and tell her everything will be ok. As soon as i am physically and financially ok, i will be visiting your whole family.even though i am very afraid of flying, i feel such a need to be around them, oh! yea, we got another rottwieler, 8mnths,85lbs,beutiful looks just like sarge, house trained,and obidience trained, his name is Tyson, he already had the name he' too old to change it.good dog we love him! We adopted him.Well I' going to go now, please be there for my surgery, i miss you so much!will be in touch soon. love you always, and will never ever forget you, love always, sue

First I want to say sorry for not writing sooner but it is hard to get a few moments with no interuptions in my house. So the wedding was great Shannon looked beautiful and Don was so  handsome in his white tux. Cassie was her Maid of Honor and Don's friend Artie was the best man. Jess was Flower girl and Nicky was Ring Bearer. Tyler and Ryan were Usheres. Other then that they also had Tiffany,Ursala, Jonna, Ashley and Nicole and Jinn Hee (I don't know if you ever met them). They all looked so beautiful. And the flowers were so nice. Then for the guys it was Nick, Jimmy, Stephen, Chris, John and George. Me and the kids got dressed at Lisa's and then Nick took the boys to the church. And the girls waited for the limo--which was a white strech Hummer that was so cool. Shannon chose to have Bob walk her half way down the isle and then Willie took her the half to the Alter. I though that was a very nice thing to do scince Bob is like a Father to her too. The church was a full ceremony and you and Don's Mom and Grandma's were mentioned. Sal and Don's Aunt and 1 other person did the readings. After church they took some pictures then went to South AMboy Beach for more pictures. Some of us went back to Lisa's unil it was time for the reception.The hall was set up realy nice. The head table looked never ending and the cake toping was cute...the bride was dragging the groom behind her.But there is more but I have to go so I will finish this later. If anyone is reading check back later for more......Ok I am back...

We had the cocktail hour first. They served Mini Egg rolls, baby hot dogs, Pizza Bagels and Chicken wings. Then they had a fruit and cheese platter. I wore a red dress, Jimmy bought a nice suit and Mom looked really nice in her cranberry dress. Bill got a new suit too but he missed the wedding because he was in the hospital. Lisa bought a blue gown that looked absolutely fabulous on her. When it was time for the Bride & Groom to make their entrance. The bridal party was announced first. The boys looked so nice walking in and Jessica and Nicky were adorable. Then came Mr. & Mrs. Donald Raymond Jr. . Shannon looked so happy walking in. Her and Don had their first dance to “be Without You” by Mary J. Blige. Then She danced with Willie to “Hero” by Mariah Carey and then with Bob to “There You’ll Be” by Faith Hill. Don dance with his sister to “Mama” by Boyz II Men”. It was so sad. He was crying. I am sure his Mom is proud of him. After all the dances were done Everyone sat down and Shannon took the mic and announced the next song was a dedication to You, Don’s Mom and his Grandma’s. It was “Bye Bye” by Mariah Carey. The song is new so I don’t think you got a chance to hear it but it is beautiful. It is about people that lost someone special. It was so sad to hear the song and see so many people crying. Tyler tried to cover up his tears but there was just too many for him to hide. As sad as it was is also how nice it was if you can understand that. Then the fun began. Everyone had a great time. Nicky and Jess looked so cute dancing together and Joey was non stop . He danced all night long. Dad and Rose had a good time dancing too. Dinner was good too. We had a choice of Half Baked chicken or Roast Beef. I had the Roast Beef. It was really good. The meals were served with baked potatoes and Green beans. And then there was a plate of Stuffed cabbage and kielbasa and sauerkraut on each table. Nicky was going up to the bar by himself asking for a coke for him and juice for his little brother. Then it was time for the family picture. It was kinda strange at first knowing that you weren’t there. It felt like a piece was missing. But then the song “Sweet Melissa” started playing. Me and Shannon though that it was just coincidence but Bob said that he requested the song be played while we were posing for pictures. It was hard to hold back tears while trying to smile but it made everything seem perfect at that moment. Like the missing piece was there now. It was nice knowing that you were that at that special moment. Jimmy left the reception early --you know him--he’d rather be home relaxing. And Ryan takes right after him - he went home with him. Don got Shannon in the face with the cake. Then Don got all under Shannon’s dress to get the garter. It was funny. Amanda-Don’s Sister’s friend- caught the bouquet and Don’s Father caught the garter. I got to dance with Tyler and I grabbed our Nephew for the last Dance of the night. We have really special Nieces. They married some great guys. I wish you could have shared all this with us. I have pics up on my My Space…WWW.myspace.com/aunttoni. So if anyone wants to see the pics go ahead and check them out. Well I think I told you all the important stuff. If I think of anything else I will write again. Missing you always. Love Ya!! Toni

Hey Mimi, just wanted to come by and talk for awhile.  Two more days and I'll be getting married can you believe it, hehe!!  It's crazy!  I really wish that you were hear, I think about you all the time.  Pretty much everyday, there are so many things that remind you of me.   A couple of weeks ago me and mommy went up to Denville for a fitting and there was a bike run it was awesome, we were driving on rt 80 and I pulled over so we can watch.  Mommy started to cry then so did I.  But it was awesome just watching everyone drive by and thinking of you.  Today I went and picked up everyones dresses they all look so beautiful, my the best of course haha.  like aunt toni said its still hard to believe that you are gone, i dont know if i told you but after we get back from the honeymoon im going to get another tattoo in remembrance of you.  im going to get a frog wearing a harley jacket, cool right.  so i just finished writing out the place cards for the wedding and mommy, me, don and jimmy were at the table.  mommy, cassie, the kids and grandpa went to the beach today.  that was nice for them.  but we were at the table and mommy was telling me that then she was at cassies house cassie started crying, i dont know if you remember the football helmets nicky got for christmas with all the football teams.  well first off no one thought that nicky was going to remember you and i knew he would because he is such a smart boy.  so anyway, nicky took out the redskins helmet and told cassie that he wanted to give it to aunt mimi.  i  knew he would remember you.  oh and i forgot about the bridal shower thank you for the picture frame - mommy picked it up and gave it to me.  she told me that you were going to get me a picture frame for the wedding.   i loved it and i cried.  god i miss you so much.......but im going to go now ill talk to you later

 

i love you so much!!!!

I't is hard to beleive that it is three months today that you have been gone. It seems so long but yet it feels like just yesterday.There is so much going on that you are missing. Shannon's shower was great. She and Don got so many nice things. Cassie's belly is getting big. Her and Nick are thinking of the name Vincent Anthony for the baby. I like that name but I told her that with that Italian name hopefully this is not the kid to have the red hair like hers. Nicky and Joey are doing great. Joey is 2 now and Ryan just turned 9. He seems so much older though. Ryan is going into the 4th Grade and Jessica is going into 1st. Tyler is going to summer school for Math and LAL but he seems to be doing ok so he should be able to go to the 6th grade. Tyler fell at the skate park a few weeks ago. He gave us a big scare but he was ok. He just banged up his face. I missed you calls though on how to take care of his wounds. Oh and Jessica lost her first tooth the other day. She looks so cute. Jimmy is doing good too. He is finally on a detox program and should be done with the clinic soon. I was always proud of him for helping himself but I guess I am even more proud of him for being stong enough to fight the urges now then ever before. The business is doing good. Jimmy got me a new truck--2005 Expedition. I just love it. He also asked Bob to build me a deck. It's great. I wish you could come hang out on it with me. Jimmy got a motorcycle -72 Honda. He rides every so often. I don't like him having it though. I know you like the bikes but I worry when he is out on it. So please be his Angel when he is riding. Our Nephew Jimmy is a volounteer EMS like Don and he just applied for the Fire Squad. His classes start in September I think. He just still needs to get a job. But i guess he will grow up soon. Mommy and Bill are doing good. She misses you so much. I give her some much credit for being so strong. Some days are very hard for her but she knows that you are at peace right now. Lisa and Bob are ok too. Lisa is still a germ freak and Jimmy and Bob are talking again. I am so glad because life is to short and we all know too well that death is unexpected and there should be no room for grudges anymore. Your Dad and Rose came up yesterday for the wedding. Can you beleive only 6 more days. Shannon looks so beautiful in her dress. When I saw her at the fitting I was just speechless. I really wish you could be here to share the moments of being a Proud Aunt. Both the girls have choosen good men to marry and are doing all the right things in life. Jimmy -well he still needs some work but he's getting there. Last night was the bachlor and bachlorette parties. The girl's went to a male revue in the city.  The guys went to Club 35 and rented the VIP room. I wasn't into going though. you know me I just ain't in to the male reveiw thing. So I had Nicky and Joey for the night. And can you believe it Joey actually fell right to sleep. He didn't even whine for Cassie. Well I hope I told you everything. And I just want to say I am sorry for things I said or maybe didn't say. Like I said  before this is NEVER how I wanted things to be. It's is just not the same without you. The kids miss you. They remember going to the beach with you. oh yeah-- your Wii character got the pro level on bowling. Jessica used her and she said you gave her good luck. A few weeks a go we had some bad thunder and the boys said you were up there bowling so everytime they heard a big boom they cheered because they said you got  a strike--I think you bowled a perfect game that nite. Jess holds her sunshine bear all the time.  Well I got to go now. I love you and I miss you. Keep watching over us.  Love, Toni

Hey Melissa, not enough room on the candle page to say all i want, I'm having a hard day today,I need to talk to you, I was cleaning out my closet and found that sweater you gave me from pt. pleasant, i love that sweater,remember i had to beg you for it,anyway i wept into it, still not believing your gone, i feel like i lost a sister,you are the closest person i have ever lost, and let me tell you it hurts like nothing i have felt before.I have to get my tattoo touched up,alot of the color came out of the rose, when its all done i will post it.Why did you have to leave so soon? there are so many people lost without you!I hope i never forget that smile of yours,One day when i get up to n.j i want to visit all of your family,and meet all the neices and nephews,I here you have another nephew on the way,congrats,luv you,talkto you soon, luv sue

DEAR GREG

               IM SO THANKFUL MELISSA FOUND PEACE IN HER HEART WITH YOU.I ALWAYS TOLD HER TO STAY IN N.J. TILL I WAS GONE. BUT WHEN SHE MEET YOU I  FELT SAFE FOR HER SHE SAID SHE LOVED YOU VERY MUCH . YES SHE MISSED US HERE BUT SHE COULDNT WAIT TO GET HOME TO YOU.  IF ONLY THE LAST TIME SHE WAS OUT WHEN SHE DIDNT FEEL GOOD I WANTED HER TO GO TO THE ER  BUT SHE SAID SHE WANTED TO GO HOME . I JUST WONDER IF SHE DID GO MAYBE SHE'D STILL BE HERE I DONT KNOW BUT WE JUST KEEP SAYING  TO OURSELEVES IF THIS IF THAT WE WILL  NEVER KNOW. WELL GREG ONE THING WE DO KNOW SHE FOUND LOVE WITH YOU TO BAD IT WAS TAKEN BUT CONTINUE TO LOVE HER IN YOUR HEART. GREG I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL BUT YOU'RE YOUNG AND YES LIFE GOES ON  [IM TRYING TO BELIEVE THAT MY SELF ]  BUT SHE WOULDNT WANT YOU NOT TO BECAUSE. SHE LOVED YOU DEARLY. GREG HAVE TO LEAVE NOW ,TALK TO YOU SOON.

                 GOD BLESS MOM SANDY

 

 

 

 

 

 

DEAR CHILDREN,

         I LOVE YOU ALL SO DEARLY.  JUST AS I LOVED HER . NOTHING IS GREATER TO KNOW YOU HAVE CHILDREN . SHE WAS SICK SINCE SHE WAS BORN  SHE WENT THROUGH ALOT BUT REMEMBER ONE THING YOU  ALL WERE VERY SPECIAL TO HER AND OF ALL THINGS HER NIECES AND NEPHEWS WERE THE LOVE OF HER LIFE. SHE LOVED YOU ALL DEARLY HOW DO WE GET THRU THIS ILL NEVER KNOW . JUST PLEASE CHERISH YOUR CHILDREN AS I CHERISH YOU ALL  BECAUSE ITS HARD WHEN ONE GOES AWAY  SO SO HARD  AND PLEASE REMEMBER ONE THING  I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I CAN EXPRESS.

                     YOUR MOM  GOD BLESS YOU ALL

                              I JESUS NAME

YOU WERE GOOD FRIENDS AND SHE REALLY CARED AND WORRIED ABOUT YOU. SHE WAS SO GLAD YOU FINALLY GOT ON WITH YOUR LIFE  SHE LOVED YOU AND SUE VERY MUCH .THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR HER  WHEN SHE NEEDED YOU .I CANT THINK OF HOW SHE IS GONE  I MISS HER SOSO MUCH . SHE LOVED YOUR SON JIMMY AS ONE OF HER NEPHEWS .I GUESS YOU KNEW THAT. WELL DENISE THERES NOT MUCH MORE I CAN SAY RIGHT NOW THE HURT AND PAIN CONTINUES AND DOESNT WANT TO GET BETTER SO ILL TALK TO YOU AGAIN

                LOVE MOM SANDY

Sue , I want to thank you for always bieng there for melissa you were a true friend . I cant understand all of this, but i know she is gone ,yes she is at piece and with the good lord . i just want her to come home even though she is home I loved her soso much. my heart is breaking more and more each day .Have to go on and I LOVE  Jimmy and Lisa just as much. Thanks for being there and taking the time to also care about me and the family.

                                                   love mom sandy

Dear Sandy, I know today has to be a very hard day for you, but I just wanted to let you know again how much she loved her family and always talked about how proud she was of you all. Sandy you were and always will be very special to Missy,all she ever wanted for you was for you to be happy and healthy.You were a great mommy to her and she took such comfort in knowing you were always there for her.Your love for your children is unconditional, and thats what makes a great mom!Remember the good times, nothing can ever take that away from you.She will always be with you. Take care of yourself. Love always Sue

Dear Sandy & Family,

I'm so sorry for your loss try to stay strong Melissa would not for you all to be so sad she is looking down at you all and wathching over you all the pain for her here is over she is now at peace forever safely home in heaven,I will pray for her every day and light a candle, Sandy my heart hurts for you  and I will pray for you to stay strong (Melissa is not gone she has just moved on to a better place)

                            God took away the pain and suffering

If you need to talk call me anytime

Love you

Rose Ann

   

How does one sum up a beauitful lady? It is hard to do, They always say the take the good first and leave the rotten behind, I guess that is true cause Melissa was and still is good, we were friends I love talking with her when she would come down to visit. Playing Cards having a beer or two lol we always had a great laugh, but in my heart and mind she is not gone she is still here with us for she will always be in our heart, yes one day we will meet and all I can say is they better be ready for one huge party!!! Greg she loved you and still does, for the love you too shared will always be there. YOU MAY BE GONE BUT YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN OUR HEARTS.      All our love , Faith. Frank and Alex

The only thing that makes me feel better about this is that I know you are NOT gone. You have just moved on.... I have never been a religious person, but this I do believe. The saying goes that life on earth is hell... (we all know that's true,) but up where you are.. Gods brightest shining star has your face on it. I wish I knew a way to make your family feel better. Time really does not erase the hurt and loneliness when the one you have loved so dearly all your life seems to be gone forever.

We will all meet up again Melissa. The good times and the bad will just be a distant memory to all.

I see that sh*t eaten' grin of yours and I know that you ARE ok..

See ya soon, and just remember WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN.. Love Lori

Thank you all for making me feel so welcome and being so kind. I appreciate it very much. You all know how special Melissa was to me and how much I love and miss her. There is a big hole in my heart now that she is gone and I don't think it can ever be filled. I took comfort in knowing when I came home from work she was always here waiting for me with love and support, always listening to what I had to say and always trying to help me in any way she could. Melissa had a heart of gold when it came to me and her family. She was unselfish and giving. I wish she was still here with all of us. I am so lonley without her here. My memories of Melissa will never ever fade and she will always be in my heart. Thanks again and I love you all!

Love,

Greg

Dear Greg,

 

We just wanted to tell you how much we appriciate everything you have done for Melissa. Thank you for being there for her when she battled cancer and thank you for everything else you went through with her. That was a very brave thing to do. Very few men would do that.  We know what you are going through right now and we all just need to remeber the good times and be happy that she is comfortable now. You will always be welcome in our home. Call us anytime you need to talk. I hope you don't mind but I would like to send you pics of the kids and stuff in memory of Melissa. Thank you again for Loving!!

 

Love,

Jimmy & Toni